Redefining part 2

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Redefining part 2

hey, why you are crying, I asked Simi

You idiot, don't know how to walk on road banged your head to the truck, you moron, She said

Ohh, c'mon just saw you and it's not my fault, it's all mirror reflection there and you are so beautiful, I was unable to concentrate and ended up in Hospital, I replied.

you will never change, she said it and smile a little. I was waiting for that smile for so many years, If I go back to my memories I m incomplete without her, I and her were the master of mischief in colony, we used to steal    cookies together, play together and fight after every 10 min. from the age of 10 to 18 I was with her, then the college changes then the life and the priorities, and she was my girlfriend also during my schooling and through most of the college time but we broke up, I don't know why (my biggest mistake of life), I got another girl, she was alone, she never had a boy in his life after me but now I came to know she is getting married and I m  in dilemma what to do what no to. I remembered everything, even the smell of the skin and one day she is in front of me and crying for me.

Hey wake up dude, I heard a sweet voice of simi, she said:' see who has come to see you', It was her fiance and simi parents, I know simi parents and I was happy to see them but seeing her fiance I don't know what happen to me, I want to cry but can't, I want to go back in time and change everything but I can't coz I m not a superman.

Day by day her care makes me feel comfortable and in the evening when he came I feel jealousy, want to kill him but leave him and one fine day when I was comfortable and fit enough to go home, I woke up at 5am asked the nurse and management to prepare the bill and went home silently leaving a note behind.

Simi,

may be I m not such a great guy. may be I m not perfect but yes I m sorry for what I did to you, we can never be friends as I said in my college that we can be friends but now I know I seriously love you,and love can never be converted back to friendship I came to know,  I never respected you the way I should but now its to late to repent, wish you happy married life and have kids and don't name them the way we decided and I still have your poetry you wrote for me once.

All the best for life. Call me for any need, will always relish those childhood days.

have fun

enjoy

I love travelling, alone.

Yours 

abhishek

So, its me now only, changed the job to a travelling job to enjoy the world with my memories.

Song of The Week | Don't take the girl | Tim McGraw

Don't take the girl:

Listen: Don't Take the girl

Johnny's daddy was taking him fishin'
He was eight years old.
Little girl came through the front gate
Holdin' a fishin' pole.
His dad looked down and smiled,
Said, "We can't leave her behind"
"Son, I know you don't want her to go,
But someday you'll change your mind."
And Johnny said,
"Take Jimmy Johnson,
Take Tommy Tompson.
Take my best friend, Bo.
Take anybody that you want as
Long as she don't go.
Take any boy in the world,
Daddy please, don't take the girl."

Same old boy, same sweet girl
Ten years down the road.
He held her tight and kissed her lips in
Front of the picture show.
Stranger came and pulled a gun
Grabbed her by the arm said "If you do what I tell you to,
There won't be any harm" 
And Johnny said "Take my money,
Take my wallet,
Take my credit cards.
Here's the watch that my grandpa gave me
Here's the key to my car
Mister give it a whirl,
But please don't take the girl."

Same old boy
Same sweet girl
Five years down the road
There's gonna be a little one and she
Says it's time to go.
Doctor says the baby's fine
But you'll have to leave
'Cause his momma's fading fast and 
Johnny hit his knees and there he prayed
"Take the very breath you gave me.
Take the heart from my chest.
I'll gladly take her place if you'll let me,
Make this my last request.
Take me out of this world
God, please don't take the girl"

Johnny's daddy
Was taking him fishin'
When he was eight years old

missing you

I m in love with you

I know what it take's to be with you

I know I have to go against the world

but what should I do

I m in love with you

the way you smile

your expression reminds me of cute small child

the way you talk

the way you make my problem solve

I know i hassle a lot

but i love to do it

and I love to see you smile

I know I m reactive

but you are the one who understand it

today when you are not with me

I m missing you like my life

I don't how can I live without you

for me you are my only lifeline

I love the way you smile....

I m missing you my life....

Redefining part1

Redefining: part1

I m all alone, helpless nothing to do, i don't know where my life is going, I have no friends to talk about personal life, I m all by myself, sadness and despair all the worst words about a person condition suits me.

you know why I m so low, why I don't want anyone because I loved someone and left her because of society, I again love someone, she left me because of society now when I started to feel good I got an invitation from my first love of her marriage which was actually my love.

But what to do, what not to,  I m cursing myself, all the good and bad memories come alive.

Few Days later

I was in Hospital I don't know how, I can barely remember anything but one thing for sure I saw her on the road that day i.e. my ex-love, came to know by a sister working there, It was a Sunday morning, when I met her. The rain was dazzling and pouring from the sky like nectar from heaven, the day was beautiful with a sunshine playing hide seek with cloud moderate temperature, I was walking in the sideline of the city to purchase a bottle of milk when a reflection from mirror hit me hard, I noticed and got amazed to see her, it was her if I was not wrong. Like an old wine, I was refreshed with my thoughts, the school, the love, the hatred, the friendship and a special bond that is not going to break and I can bet about it. She is there and I m right in front of her waiting for her to turn around when a car hit me. My bad.

I got a knock on my hospital room and She was standing in front of me.

*to be continued.......

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Something

Something is left behind
with no purpose
something is not with me
with no reason
the melancholy state
is here, more than usual.
alone...!!!
I don't know why
but
Something is left behind.......................


the days which were solitaire
gone like a season's another affair
peace of mind, I can found no-where
now-here,  I can sense despair...
Heart is like a stone
and there is nothing to mourn.

Something is left behind

with no purpose
something is not with me
with no reason


life is race and
it keeps on dragging me
I don't want to run

Away from this crowd
I want to live
I want peace
I want love....