Stare

It is too less for me to understand and you are too bold
The stare that can kill me without being told.

Nothing to assess, your emotions are held within
And I am far less educated to understand it

and yet I am standing in front of you
trying to help us, waiting for a clue

Your eyes are so serene, like a fresh morning in the mountains
Yet I can see pearls in them, inside your ocean of emotions 

This is the time when I realize
I was wrong and you were right

I know whatever the situations might be
but I cannot see tears in my would be

I tried to be calm
Darling, its true
But I cannot control my rage for you
And that's when I started to build a cage for you

I want you to be free
Like a care free spirit
Like an angel
With dreams in your eyes so high
You can touch up the sky

I knew somewhere in my heart
That I was doing wrong
But I am the one who hold this strong
I will be your other half
Your soulmate
Your call in alone
Your ears for talk
Your first and last resort

O baby please don't go,
Not physically but emotionally also.
Keep us connected
I will bring you back
Your soul
And then we will be together like we used to be
And shine like a brightest star in this sky

"And then I said sorry, kneeled down and regretted in full emotion
Then these words came out of my mouth in a natural notion

Your are my angel and my life
My first and last friend and my would be wife
I know I hurt you
That's my mistake
O! my darling
Please spare me from your stare

I don't want to be your dream killer
I want to be your dream maker
and I will make you reach there
High in the sky and we live there

All I can do is promise to you, 
All our dreams will come true, 
And brighter then diamond we will shine,
I will never let a pearl fall on the ground from your eyes"

duniya bekar hai

kya sach hai kya jhoot
kaun paas hai kaun door hai
ek raah anjaani hai
mastani jawaani hai
reham hai har kisi ka
kisi ki be-parwahi hai
mohabbat ke naam par bas
humne chot hi khaayi hai
akele chal diye hai usi anjaani raah par
manjil abhi tak na humne paayi hai

kya kahei ae duniya waalo
waqt ki taraazoo par humne
jab bhi rishtey naape hai
us par khud pasandi ki boo humne paayi hai
zehar si ho rhi jindagi ko
ab alvida keh dia hai
un namurad rishtey ko
ab alvida keh dia hai

chal pade hai
hum bad chale hai
na kisi ki khabar liye
hum nikal pade hai
usi anjaani raah par
mast jawaani ka anand lekar
hum duniya ki fikr chod kar
jindagi jeene
apni manjil ki aur
chal pade hai....

Being Grey

Greyed Out

So unreal, it seems so neo noir.... 
Is it my imagination or truth is a shady place..
Feed me with your thoughts and I am yours,
Mind been captured and catapulted in a direction I even don't know,
Show me the direction I wanna go
Show me the face I need to blow
Everyone seems right yet so wrong
Why am I thinking all this
Like a universe being created in my temple
And the bells are ringing like a mess
And life is playing the bloody chess

Saw a broken star and wished for the strength to face the problems,
Wished for the trust from my own
Wished my owns understand me more
And wished not to destroy whoever I was
Please do not kill the soul
Wished to make world a happy place
Make it a black and white place
No grey areas, grey is bad
Grey is worst.

Lost

kabhi kahin shikwe hai
kahin ansu hai
kahin dil ka samundar adhoora hai
kahin shikayato mei ghira sansar hai

man ki baat hai
man mei hi rehti hai
naqaab kisi cheez ka hota hai
jubaan dikhawe ki hoti hai

har baat ka koi jawab nhe hota
har sawal sahi bhi nhe hota hai
kisso mei uljhi hui kahani hai
kho gyi sabki nishani hai

man mei jajbaat ajeeb hote hai
alfaazo mei alag hote hai
aayine mei dekho to
tasveer alag hoti hai

roz naya suraj hota hai
roz naya chehra bunte hai
roz naye bahane chunte hai

sikhte to hum yeh sab bachpan se hi hai
sikhaane waale bhi beymaan nahi hote hai
imaandaar kaun hai, shareef kaun
isi mei kho jaate hai
hum khud se hi door jaate hai

kisi ke na hote hue bhi hum kisi k ho jaate hai
roj ro jaate hai
karwat badalte hai aur so jaate hai

kya khoya hai
kya paaya hai
humne khud se narajgi
khud ko hi bheed mei gawaya hai

Mei bhi jeelunga

माना की हम अधूरे है
तेरे बिना हम कैसे पूरे है
यह मंजिले भी अजीब है
हर दिन बदलती है

पर अब मे थक गया हूँ
अपनी उमीदो से मे हार गया हूँ
मेी गिर गया हूँ
अब संभालना नही आ रा है मेरे को

खुदा से बस एक ही दुआ है
मेरी जान ले ले
क्यूंकी दिखता मुझे अब सिर्फ़ धुआँ है..
धुआ ऐसा जो छ्ट नही रा है
मेरे मान पर छा चुका है
बस अब और रहा जाता नहीं
तेरे बिना जिया जाता नहीं
जा चुका है तू मुझसे मीलो दूर

अब कैसे आएगा तू पास मेरे
क्या कसमे
क्या वादे
सब झुटे हो रहे है
तुम अलग हो रहे हो
हम अलग हो रहे ह
चले जाओ हमसे दूर
मेरे आँसू कहीं तुमको रोक ना ले
मेरा दिल कहीं फिर तुमको रुकने पर मजबूर ना करदे
मेरे बिना ही तेरी खुशी है
मेरे बिना ही तेरी खुशी है
दर्द दिए है बहुत
मेरी भी उम्मीदे अलग थी
पर अब क्या फाय्दा
क्या फाय्दा तेरे आने का भी वापस
ना वो प्यार ह
ना मेरी इज़्ज़त है तेरी नज़रो मे
अब तो बस तन्हा इस राह पर
अकेले खड़े है
चली जा दूर
रहे तू खुश
दुआ है मेरी
तुझे मिले जिंदगी भरपूर
मेरे क्या है
मे तो जीलूनगा
तेरी खुशी क खातिर मेी भी जीलूनगा...

Time and Me

Is samay ki keemat samjh aa rhi hai

mere seene se jaan nikle ja rhi hai

kabhi nai tha mei sahi samay par sahi jagah

bas mere ashko ki ek ladi bahe ja rhi hai

Apno ko khota ja rha hun

sabki badd duayo ka hissa banta ja rha hun

kissa mera bhi ajeeb hai

sab kuch hokar bhi kuch nahi hai

man lag nahi rha hai

kaam ho nahi rha hai

ek bahaav mei bahe ja rha hun

mei tanha hota ja rha hun

koshish karta hun pahuchne ki manjil

par sochta hun behta rahun

mei kismat ki nadio mei doobta rahun

naya kuch kar pata nahi

ghar se itna door hun

aukaat jaane ki wapas bana pata nahin

mei thak gya hun

mei haar sa gya hun

jeene ke liye nikla tha door mei

mei to marta ja rha hun

sabka paraya hota ja rha hun

dost khoye ab khoon k rishtey bhi chod rhe hai

pyar bhi ajeeb hai mera

sab kuch hokar bhi kuch nahi hai mera

mehnat kiye ja rha hun

akela chale ja rha hun

kuch apno ke kaam nahi aa rha hun

apna kharcha bhi mushkil se utha pa rha hun

udhari ka jeeven ho gya hai

ghar ka haal behaal hai

dard hai

zakhm hai

marham ka kuch pata nahi hai

dhundta hun mei maa ka woh anchal

jisme mil jaaye saari khushia mujhe

dhundta hun mei pitaji ki woh rai

jisme mil jaaye saare upaaye

ab to andhero se ghir sa gya hun

mujhko nikalne yahan se koi to aaye

samay ki aukaat pata chal gyi

mera samay bhi koi theek kar jaaye

majboorio ki bedia ko todne ki takat do mujhe

aage badne ka hosla do mujhe

Kuch kar dikhane ka jajba aa jaye
khushiya meri laut aaye

Maaf kardena mujhko
lagi ho chot agar kahin kisi ko
mei to jeeta ja rha hun
mei to ladta ja rha hun
duao mei yaad rakhna mujhko bas
ladai khud se mei karne ja rha hun....

Smile

near to lake, near to you, near to heaven

You are hiding something in your eyes
I can see something behind your smile
there is a pain in your life
you don't wanna share your bad time

I want to tell you one thing
I m with you wherever u standing
In the room full of darkness
and in the joy of happiness

How I can see you cry
How I can make you mine
you the one I always try
to make u smile, to make u smile

you got an angel eyes
the way you blush
it took away my heart,
yes you are right
it makes me happy,
to see you smile

I like the way u talk
I like the way u mumble
it makes my heart to do royal rumble
All I want you to know
I ll be there for you
like a star in sky
we will fly
one day it will be our time
when there will be no one
and we hold each other tight
sharing all emotions
we will be in the sky
flying high
like a child on a ride
on green ground and trees will come alive
near to lake and hills high
we will go together
on every part of life
i wanna be with you
for your every sorrow and joy in each mile
and we will meet one day
when there will be no one
to keep us apart from each other
and then together
for us and forever
we live happily and keep on this smile.

Jinda Dili

Jinda Dili 

kuch kashmakash si hai jindagi mei
kuch to alag yeh mausam hai
kuch kami hai ab is mehfil mei
kyun sab jagah bikhra sa man hai

har seher mei bandh ti jo umeed hai
har shab mei toot jaati hai
kisso ki kahaniya yaad karke
labo se hasi chhoot jati hai

lamho mei gujar gaye jo pal
yun hi beet jaate hai
kuch makaam peeche choot jaate hai
kuch baatein yaad aa jaati hai

ashk bhi sookh jaatei hai
mohabbat bhi mit jaati hai
kuch vaadei reh jaatei hai
kuch yaadein reh jaati hai

kisi ke thahake
kisi ki badmashia reh jaati hai
seene mei bandh jaati hai kahaniya kayi
kaid usme saari jindagi ho jaati hai

ji karta hai chala jayun sab chodkar
mei us paar kahi door
par kuch majbooriyan aa jaati hai
kuch jimmedariyan aa jati hai

doobti kashti fr sambhal jaati hai
jab ankhon mei apno ki tasveer aa jati hai
baawre dil ko mana leta hai man
jab kabhi mushkile hadh se jyada bad jaati hai

chalna seekha hai
ab daud bhi lagayenge
hum mohabbat ke meethe bol gayenge
sambhaal lenge ab is dil ko bhi
ab hum khuhshia hi lutyange
geet madhur gun gunayenge
koi falsafa nya banayenge
jinda dili ke kisse humare,
log dunia mei gayenge
"musafir" ki tarah
hum to bas chalte jayenge
har mukaam se nayi manjil banayenge
hum to bas chalte jayenge

Don't know where to go, just walk.

Helplessness

Helplessness

Ok,

So Today I saw tears without water, courage without power, power without dignity, cruelty without guilt, men with hand shackled in poorness and a ruthless king.
Yes, I read those stories in magazines and books, but i found it here, in Bangalore (Indiranagar).

Its the end of evening when I reached mobile recharge shop with my girl friend asking for a 150 bucks recharge when a south Indian came asking, "Bhen***d(sister F***ker) Shyam (security guard ,standing just besides us.) why the signals are not coming", holding a samsung tab 2, don't know its a network problem, the King in his traditional south Indian dress (orange lungi+white shirt+blue chappal), again asking the same question with far more cruel voice," Bhen***d (sister F***ker) , bol(speak)", from one of his servants and then slapped him with full speed like my Hindi teacher used to hit me, in front of everyone and a girl. My mouth is open wide and then he said "I m waiting there get it corrected as soon as possible else you know".

My girlfriend got scared even I , he was 6ft tall weighing almost 90 kg and so obviously I couldn't speak. Everywhere was a deep silence and I saw that security guard, numb, a fine actor, crying from inside not letting even a single tear out, I know what he was thinking, if it was me at his place I might have killed him may be not.

I walked two steps with courage without power, "King" was watching me, I asked him "kaha se ho (Where are you from)", he replied Muzzafarnagar.
I told him putting my hand on his shoulder, "Don't work here, if you want to live".
After which my girlfriend took me with her, I dropp her at her PG, went home thinking about the guys handcuffed with poverty and money, leaving their self respect, just to live and I don't know how he will fix his TAB.

*Its a true story

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half happy

ek raah thi par manjil nahi thi...

parents and care

ek raasta tha par thikaana nahi tha..

gharo mei  jalte diye dekhe

to yaad aayi maa ki

roshan hota tha unka ghar

mere aane se shaam ko

ek din aaya aisa

safar par chal dia mei

"musafir" nikal gaya sadak pe

leke kashti lehro par

ufanti lehro se takrakar

pahucha jab manjil ki aur

to kinara door ho gya

mei ghar se manjil se

aur halaat se majboor ho gya

dekha idhar udhar

to puri dunia thi kashmakash mei

bhai, behen, pyar aur dost ke hatho mei

bandhi thi dore nayi si unke beech mei

mei bhi unhi se jud gya...

adha khush ho gya

ma, pitaji

mei bahut bada ban gya

par adha khush reh gya....

apke bina...!!!

apka sath tha

par paas na tha

apka ehsas tha

par sath na tha

baaton ka kya fayda tha

jab aap ka sahara na tha

rupey bahut they jeb mei

par khali jeb ka bahana na tha

ma, pitaji

bas yaadon ka asra tha

mera apke paas hi thikana tha

bas chaldiya mei pata nahi kyun

khushiyo ka sansar to aapse hi tha

ashko ka kya fayda

ab mei bada ban gya

par adha khush reh gya.....

apke bina...!!!

God, flexibility and you

Me and God...
the decision between Good me and Evil me
this is GOOD ME

I'm a Hindu, but don't know much about my mythology but still remember many events that my age mates don't remember. I remember most of the Ramayana (thanks to Ramanand Sagar),and I also remember most of the Mahabharata (Thanks to B.R. Chopra). I know, this piece I'm writing will be crap for some one, but have you imagine a life without GOD, Just Imagine for 2 min. and think what we will miss.

• No one will say why me God!!
• There will be no one whom you can always blame
• There will be no one whom you can ask anything anytime
• There will be no source of spiritual awareness
• There will be no thanking of GOD if you achieve something great
• There will be no temples, no church, no Mosque, no Gurudwara.

Then what, what we will say, why me Gandhiji or why me Hitler... just joking but as far as I feel, without GOD life is nothing, a kind of power will be lost forever that everyone feels inside them at some point of time in life.

I'm not saying that GOD is supreme and you should bow in front of HIM, even the God doesn't want it.
He is our friend, one who listen to our problems patiently any time, who is with us like air, who smiles with us cry with us, he is inside our Heart, living peacefully, who visits us at many points of time.

Now how come he can visit us, He is not here, He is in heaven, He has no face, he sends messengers, how come you are hurting my religious sentiments, 

This blog should be banned and he(I) must be jailed....???????????

The common mentality of every religion, the common man problem, they are so into in their sentiments to show their religious superiority that they forgot GOD never wants hatred, all he know is LOVE, Peace and Happiness.

Helping others will always make GOD happy any way any how, help others.

NOW the question is how come he visits us.......

• As your best friend who listen to your problem and mostly fixed it
• As you parents/caretakers who tries to fix your problems and need
• A friend who is happy with your happiness and sad with your sadness
• Same with the lover who loves you
• Same with those who blesses you with good health and wealth
• The one who you like to talk
• The one whom you'll share your problems

Still we need GOD, you know why, he made us like this, we are ambitious/over insecure who need God every time, we can never be satisfied, I know this is harsh, but this is the bitter truth and we became over protective about our religious sentiments, we have become insecure and we become rigid, even the God says that change can never be avoided but still we used to follow 10,000 years old ethics and loose our flexibility. It should be changed, this view should change and our lifestyle should change.

Nothing else to say, follow GOD be little flexible...

and Love for me is the thing that inspires me, motivates me and help me to what I m ...

which is GOD for me............and that is music.

Nagavara Lake and Sun Rays | Nature at its best

Nagavara Lake and Sun Rays | Nature at its best

Sunset

Lake 

Lake, nature and sunset

Lake and SunRays

Rays of Hope 

via: Avipsa

Redefining part 2

Link to Redefining part1

Redefining part 2

hey, why you are crying, I asked Simi

You idiot, don't know how to walk on road banged your head to the truck, you moron, She said

Ohh, c'mon just saw you and it's not my fault, it's all mirror reflection there and you are so beautiful, I was unable to concentrate and ended up in Hospital, I replied.

you will never change, she said it and smile a little. I was waiting for that smile for so many years, If I go back to my memories I m incomplete without her, I and her were the master of mischief in colony, we used to steal    cookies together, play together and fight after every 10 min. from the age of 10 to 18 I was with her, then the college changes then the life and the priorities, and she was my girlfriend also during my schooling and through most of the college time but we broke up, I don't know why (my biggest mistake of life), I got another girl, she was alone, she never had a boy in his life after me but now I came to know she is getting married and I m  in dilemma what to do what no to. I remembered everything, even the smell of the skin and one day she is in front of me and crying for me.

Hey wake up dude, I heard a sweet voice of simi, she said:' see who has come to see you', It was her fiance and simi parents, I know simi parents and I was happy to see them but seeing her fiance I don't know what happen to me, I want to cry but can't, I want to go back in time and change everything but I can't coz I m not a superman.

Day by day her care makes me feel comfortable and in the evening when he came I feel jealousy, want to kill him but leave him and one fine day when I was comfortable and fit enough to go home, I woke up at 5am asked the nurse and management to prepare the bill and went home silently leaving a note behind.

Simi,

may be I m not such a great guy. may be I m not perfect but yes I m sorry for what I did to you, we can never be friends as I said in my college that we can be friends but now I know I seriously love you,and love can never be converted back to friendship I came to know,  I never respected you the way I should but now its to late to repent, wish you happy married life and have kids and don't name them the way we decided and I still have your poetry you wrote for me once.

All the best for life. Call me for any need, will always relish those childhood days.

have fun

enjoy

I love travelling, alone.

Yours 

abhishek

So, its me now only, changed the job to a travelling job to enjoy the world with my memories.

conflict

"conflict"

मिटटी को  जितना पकड़ो उतना फिसलती है
हाथो की लकीरे हर वक़्त बदलती है
खुशनुमा सा होता है वक़्त जब भी
उसी  मोड़ पर जिंदगी रुख बदलती है....

राह में चलना है सबको ,भीड़ बहुत है 
मेरी नज़र  ढूँढती  जिसे हर पल है
कभी इधर कभी उधर
हर चेहरे में तलाशती उसको नजर  है

"मुसाफिर" की तरह चल तो दिए है 
ठिकाने की किसे खबर है
ख़ुशी हो जिसमे सबकी
उसी मंजिल की तलब है

पानी है बेरंग अब हम
इसमें मिल जाते हज़ार रंग है
किसी भी रंग में नेह्लादो हमें
हम शक्कर  की तरह मौज मस्त है

इन सभी हसी के पीछे छिपा 
एक इंसान का मन है
उलझा हुआ इतना
की समझ नहीं आता
क्या सही क्या गलत है

सही गलत के बीच लिए गए कुछ फैसले है
जिनसे बनी मेरी किस्मत है
किसका दोष है कौन बेक़सूर
सब ऊपर वाले का असर है

दिलो में कैद हज़ार ख्वाहिशे बंद है
कुछ उमीदे इन हसी में भी है
गम भी है... ख़ुशी भी।.....
क्युंकी 

मिटटी को  जितना पकड़ो उतना फिसलती है
हाथो की लकीरे हर वक़्त बदलती है
खुशनुमा सा होता है वक़्त जब भी
उसी  मोड़ पर जिंदगी रुख बदलती है....

Uncertainty

Uncertainty

So Simple yet so tricky
so eluding yet so easy
this life is like a puzzle
so light yet so heavy

making the distance come short
loving the way you talk
making happiness everywhere
your frown is what I fear

I m confused like hell
no coin in the well
to pray, to cherish my way
standing between decisions
I m the one who is super idiot

blames and counter questions
I think my silence is the best answer
may be i m wrong 
may be my acts were wrong
now heading toward backwards 
today i m in the past
today i m lost
today is what left with me
today i m not with me

future is uncertain
life  is mysterious
I m playing a biggest gamble
my happiness relies on it
and so of others
let God help me out of it
let this be my destiny
I m sure that I will get what I want
but what HE has planned
no one knows his power

let me be myself
and one day
I will get what I had planned...........
future is uncertain
life is mysterious........

the day you are missing me

the day you are missing me

I got this feeling every time
someday, I'll not be there to make you smile
the day when you will need me
but i m so far away that you can't see me
than what will you do
to make yourself smile........?

A smile on your lips and a tear in your eyes.....

I was not a kind of guy
that let his feeling show
I thought that being alone
is the worst way to go
but its all enough
let me be alone
let me be by myself
all by me.........
in the most unknowable region
that no one could go

Now
today is "the day you are missing me"....

you are the one who thinks I m the fool
you all thinks I m the one that is for granted one
but its not all over
may be I smile a lot but it doesn't mean
I don't have a heart who care...
that day come
and they realizes, how irresponsible I was
one mistake and you forget it all...
and in the end it all went wrong
you leave me all alone........

time passes bye,  time goes on
you catch up an old album, an old video
saw me and laugh a lot
ask your old pal
where I was gone
and that is "the day you are missing me" a lot....

See
I had a problem that no one knows
In my last days I m all alone
I have no friends no one to talk
lying on my bed
still smiling with the memories
I don't want to share
one day I ll be gone
you will get a postcard regarding my end
but you will be unaware of the fact
where I went
where I rest with my batch mates memories
that I ll cherish even after my death...
and you won't get a hint
and even a stone can't tell
where I m lying...

love untouched

"love untouched"

अलफ़ाज़ जुबां पे आते नहीं
सांसो में लफ्ज़ गुम हो जाते है

तेरे मेरे दरमियाँ की है यह कहानी में

देखते ही तुमको मेरे नैना 

तुझी में कही खो जाते है.

तुमसे ही है शाम, सुबह तेरी आँखों से हो

इसी आस में हम कही भी सो जाते है

शायद मोहब्बत है तुमसे तुम जरा हमको  समझो

हम भीड़ में भी तन्हा हो जाते है.

कैसे कहे तुमसे इसलिए कभी कभी लिख जाते है 

अपना  दर्द हम कागज़ पे बयाँ कर जाते है

जज्बात तेरे मेरे प्यार की दास्ताँ के 

 हम तुझको अपने शब्दों में पा जाते है 

ढूंढे  तुझको हर जगह

एक नाव का किनारा है तू

मोहब्बत मेरी है तुमसे ही है

एक हसीन सफ़र का रास्ता है तू 

तू है जैसे गुलाब अनदेखा

जिसकी खुशबू है सबसे अनजान

पाना चाहू तुझे चाहे जो हो अंजाम 

हर पल मेरी सोच में तुम हो

मेरे लिए मेरा जहाँ तुम हो

तुम मोहब्बत हो

तुम इबादत हो

तुम से ही नदिया और कुदरत तुमसे हो 

तुम हो तो सब कुछ हो

तुम न हो तो कुछ न हो 

बादलों से उची तुम्हारी उड़ान हो

तुम्हारी ख़ुशी ही मेरी मंजिल

तुम्हे पाना और तुम्हे हर पल हसना

अब येही मेरा अंजाम हो....

येही मेरा अंजाम हो.....

values: A comparison

" सड़क और राह "

सड़क ने कहा राह से, 

तू है कैसे मुझसे अलग,क्या है ऐसा तुझमे ,

 क्यूँ है तू सबकी पसंद और में एक निर्जीव की तरह रहती हूँ क्यूँ अलग,

हर कवी की पसंद तू, हर इंसान की मंजिल का रास्ता तू 

हर कोई लगत आस तेरी हर कोई में में क्यूँ नहीं 

यह भेदभाव कैसा है जो न होकर भी होता है मेरी रूह को झिंझोर कर रख देता है,

 आते है आंसू आँखों में रोज सुनकर लोगो की बातें

 सोचती रहती हूँ, कि क्या है मेरा दोष.......

राह ने कहा होती मंजिल तय सबकी आस्मां में

ना दे तो इसमें किसी को दोष

में हूँ रूप तेरा ही दूसरा

तू सच्चाई है में सपना एक अच्छा

राह बन जाती है हर वोह सड़क 

जब होती है उसमे ताकत जीतने की

में भी हूँ तेरा ही एक रूप, सड़क आम आदमी की राह मंजिल की 

न हो अब उदास तू 

नहीं हूँ में भी तुझसे अलग

दोष दिया है संसार ने भी मानकर मुझे गलत

हर वक़्त हर किसी का नहीं होता

इसी सड़क की तरह कभी टुटा फूटा 

कभी साफ़ सुथरा होता

सड़क में और राह में है एक बहुत बड़ा फरक

लोग का गुस्सा उतरता राह पर

पर प्यार मिलता है तुझे ए सड़क....

A wish

"A wish"

I don't need a smile of you that is not mine...
I don't need your concern that is not by heart...
I can't see anything in your eyes...A blank space of mine..

Its all about time I wanted from you, but you was running out of time...
you were not there when I needed you and I m the one who apologize...

I feel so alone....

with all the leftovers of you..
I cried like a rainfall of the pain..
missing you like hell
why I m the one who regrets...

Its all about the space you needed I gave it to you..
You want to be on your own, wants freedom I gave it to you...
I fight for you, expected something from you
but it all ended....

closing my eyes a tear of you rolled down my cheeks...
cold air surround me with a cool breeze...
you are a part of my life i ll never forget
its all the matter of time that you are not here...
but why this sacrifice for me , she should tell me ...

[pause]
now I m the one who is repenting.
and in the heaven she is resting....
now I know the love
I remember all the promise, I remember everything
I m aiming towards our dreams
I need you why you left me
I m missing you
I am all alone

I m all alone blaming myself...
I was not there when she needed me the most...
I m waiting for you, a wish that can never come true crying like hell...
but
I m still waiting n waiting n waiting for you to come and give me a hug...
A wish that can never turn true...