Matured

Being mature is something we will never know,
Enjoying party with the one you love thinking it will help my vested interests more

Enjoying romance with a stranger or with the one you love who doesn't care.
So you think its the other person responsibility to arouse your interest in them.
So you think you can take anyone for granted because he or she will not matter anymore.

Or So you think you can tell 
Tell what is right or wrong
You leave the persons you loves a lot
You do not enjoy company of friends
You do not love parties
You care for your money ever more

You become what society asked
You are not making any new friends

But when people lied to your face, made fun of your ways
They made you follow a certain path, and now they say you are changed

Why?

Tell me why speaking truth is the new crime
Coz you think money can buy, buy yourself a smile
Branded clothes and pics where you are in sky

To be true maturity is exactly the same thing.
It makes you a lovable person and a lying confident arrogant.
You will have an empty heart with no one inside.

You fulfill society wish and the child insides you die.

So does it makes you smile or does it makes you cry?
Does it?

duniya bekar hai

kya sach hai kya jhoot
kaun paas hai kaun door hai
ek raah anjaani hai
mastani jawaani hai
reham hai har kisi ka
kisi ki be-parwahi hai
mohabbat ke naam par bas
humne chot hi khaayi hai
akele chal diye hai usi anjaani raah par
manjil abhi tak na humne paayi hai

kya kahei ae duniya waalo
waqt ki taraazoo par humne
jab bhi rishtey naape hai
us par khud pasandi ki boo humne paayi hai
zehar si ho rhi jindagi ko
ab alvida keh dia hai
un namurad rishtey ko
ab alvida keh dia hai

chal pade hai
hum bad chale hai
na kisi ki khabar liye
hum nikal pade hai
usi anjaani raah par
mast jawaani ka anand lekar
hum duniya ki fikr chod kar
jindagi jeene
apni manjil ki aur
chal pade hai....

Being Grey

Greyed Out

So unreal, it seems so neo noir.... 
Is it my imagination or truth is a shady place..
Feed me with your thoughts and I am yours,
Mind been captured and catapulted in a direction I even don't know,
Show me the direction I wanna go
Show me the face I need to blow
Everyone seems right yet so wrong
Why am I thinking all this
Like a universe being created in my temple
And the bells are ringing like a mess
And life is playing the bloody chess

Saw a broken star and wished for the strength to face the problems,
Wished for the trust from my own
Wished my owns understand me more
And wished not to destroy whoever I was
Please do not kill the soul
Wished to make world a happy place
Make it a black and white place
No grey areas, grey is bad
Grey is worst.

Lost

kabhi kahin shikwe hai
kahin ansu hai
kahin dil ka samundar adhoora hai
kahin shikayato mei ghira sansar hai

man ki baat hai
man mei hi rehti hai
naqaab kisi cheez ka hota hai
jubaan dikhawe ki hoti hai

har baat ka koi jawab nhe hota
har sawal sahi bhi nhe hota hai
kisso mei uljhi hui kahani hai
kho gyi sabki nishani hai

man mei jajbaat ajeeb hote hai
alfaazo mei alag hote hai
aayine mei dekho to
tasveer alag hoti hai

roz naya suraj hota hai
roz naya chehra bunte hai
roz naye bahane chunte hai

sikhte to hum yeh sab bachpan se hi hai
sikhaane waale bhi beymaan nahi hote hai
imaandaar kaun hai, shareef kaun
isi mei kho jaate hai
hum khud se hi door jaate hai

kisi ke na hote hue bhi hum kisi k ho jaate hai
roj ro jaate hai
karwat badalte hai aur so jaate hai

kya khoya hai
kya paaya hai
humne khud se narajgi
khud ko hi bheed mei gawaya hai

Time and Me

Is samay ki keemat samjh aa rhi hai

mere seene se jaan nikle ja rhi hai

kabhi nai tha mei sahi samay par sahi jagah

bas mere ashko ki ek ladi bahe ja rhi hai

Apno ko khota ja rha hun

sabki badd duayo ka hissa banta ja rha hun

kissa mera bhi ajeeb hai

sab kuch hokar bhi kuch nahi hai

man lag nahi rha hai

kaam ho nahi rha hai

ek bahaav mei bahe ja rha hun

mei tanha hota ja rha hun

koshish karta hun pahuchne ki manjil

par sochta hun behta rahun

mei kismat ki nadio mei doobta rahun

naya kuch kar pata nahi

ghar se itna door hun

aukaat jaane ki wapas bana pata nahin

mei thak gya hun

mei haar sa gya hun

jeene ke liye nikla tha door mei

mei to marta ja rha hun

sabka paraya hota ja rha hun

dost khoye ab khoon k rishtey bhi chod rhe hai

pyar bhi ajeeb hai mera

sab kuch hokar bhi kuch nahi hai mera

mehnat kiye ja rha hun

akela chale ja rha hun

kuch apno ke kaam nahi aa rha hun

apna kharcha bhi mushkil se utha pa rha hun

udhari ka jeeven ho gya hai

ghar ka haal behaal hai

dard hai

zakhm hai

marham ka kuch pata nahi hai

dhundta hun mei maa ka woh anchal

jisme mil jaaye saari khushia mujhe

dhundta hun mei pitaji ki woh rai

jisme mil jaaye saare upaaye

ab to andhero se ghir sa gya hun

mujhko nikalne yahan se koi to aaye

samay ki aukaat pata chal gyi

mera samay bhi koi theek kar jaaye

majboorio ki bedia ko todne ki takat do mujhe

aage badne ka hosla do mujhe

Kuch kar dikhane ka jajba aa jaye
khushiya meri laut aaye

Maaf kardena mujhko
lagi ho chot agar kahin kisi ko
mei to jeeta ja rha hun
mei to ladta ja rha hun
duao mei yaad rakhna mujhko bas
ladai khud se mei karne ja rha hun....

Hinduism for me

What is Hinduism to me ?

Hinduism, According to wikipedia is a categorisation of distinct intellectual or philosophical points of view, rather than a rigid, common set of beliefs. And its the third most followed religion after Christianity and Islam.

So Hinduism is a religion and the one who'll follows it are Hindus. Different people have different views on it.
But who is an HINDU.

-Hinduism never forces anyone to follow beliefs or follow certain sets of instruction. So in short we are free man.
-We are flexible. We can be whatever we want to. We can eat non-veg or veg. But our paneer butter masala is better than any chicken or mutton put together.
-We try to give equal importance to girls and treat them as goddess. At the same time we beat them and burn them for dowry. But don't you feel its a personality trait rather religious.
-We pray whenever we want to.
-Its not necessary to know or read our holy-books.
-We have lot of holy-books but nobody knows the ACTUAL holy-books (oldest) i.e. Vedas.
-Nobody reads Vedas nowadays except Arya Samaji.

Who are Arya Samaji?
They are followers of Swami Dayananda. Non followers of MURTI_PUJA.

So we have all types of people. We have rapist, we have thief's, we thugs, murderers and we have POLITICIANS.
BUT we have angels also. We follow single marriage and we worship our daughters. We give our kids a chance to follow thier dreams and we respect our elders.We are no way above or below any other religion, we are like others.

But there are some misconceptions.People says we are Hypocrites, my answer is yes, we are. Our religion is more older than you can imagine try to do wiki on it.

We follow Half man and half monkey, we follow Elephant faced God and we also follow God who sits on  snakes bed. We follows goddess who has a pet lion, and we also follows goddess who sits on lotus and spread education. so we have more than a crore God but you know every God has a origin from 3 God and Goddess. Brahma, Vishnu and Mahesh(Shiva) and their respective wives Saraswati, Lakshmi and Parvati. and their origin is A VOICE, you know how it sound, it sound OHM.

So our God is also unseen(OHM) and every other thing is either their Avatar with lots of power that came up with time and additions to text. Our Vedas doesn't have a single mention of GOD. We follow them and our real Pandits follow them. Everything else is a source of power and light for our internal enlightenment.

And this what Hinduism to me. We do not bow in front of anyone and we do not dis-respect any other religion.

Ohm- Source to everything.

By Harshit Rastogi

Wikipedia will help you.

Jee le..

Khawbo ko udan de

dil ko tu tham le
mushkil hai hazaar kayi
unse tu na haar rey

O Maula tera hi kasoor hai
jo na mujhko sukoon hai
kashmakash ki jindagi mei
khwahisho ka junoon hai

Ajeeb se is jahan mei
sab Khana-Badosh hain
kya hai kya nahi hai
kisi ko na hosh hai

tu jo aajaye yahan pe
dekhle tu apni najar se
kaisi si ho gayi hai yeh jindagi
ban gayi hai yeh bandagi

jeene ki aas mei
kho gaye hum is jahan mei
paaya na khoya kuch
yaadon mei soya sab

O Maula tera hi kasoor hai
jo na mujhko sukoon hai
kashmakash ki jindagi mei
khwahisho ka junoon hai.....

When I meet her and her helplessness.

 When I meet her and her helplessness.

I don't know, may be she is very old, may be near to 30 but within fraction of seconds I saw the loneliness in her eyes, the vague activities of her and the unexpected concern about an unknown, cannot make me forget her. May be I m too foolish to think to much of merely 10 seconds meet but it is changing my ideas, my views and my ideology of  taking and thinking about things that are neither social nor culturally good but it exist in our system from the days of Mahabharata, yes may be what you are thinking is right, I m talking about those dark and grey areas of society  which is known by everyone but nobody talks about it, nobody cares for them, we think of them as use and throw disposable pens. But I myself who respects girls a lot may or may not respect them before that incident, I m talking about those girls who makes man (who are not) happy in exchange of money.

It was March starting and I was marching towards my home on my scooter from palace road to near Leela palace, Kodihalli when my mobile rang near to Chinnaswamy stadium back and then again near to Shivaji nagar and again at manipal center so finally I stopped my scooter by crossing the manipal center turning left, just before the metro stop and pick it up, and it was my friend asking about how to deactivate fb profile, stupid but there during my call some one say, "want to go", I didn't looked at her, and just said no, and when she walked past me, I saw her and I came to know what she meant by that, I don't know what to do so I cut my phone and start laughing, I was laughing that why she asked me , I m just 22 and I don't want these shits, may be she can't see my face, that I m a young guy for these things but in the end I was laughing and then she looked backed at me smiling saying just go, leave, I said OK I m leaving and I was smiling, she said "go, some one will come then." And then I realized who is someone aka police or pimp, so I left from there. I saw something there, I saw something in her eyes , she was wearing saree, good ethical wears, and by face cut she is looking good, good English accent may be she is working in some call center may be not, but looks educated to me. But I saw something in her eyes, something that every girl has, dreams, waiting for a prince, care, maturity, affection and a lot of loneliness. I go a little forward looked back she was talking to some girl, and I zoom away on my scooter, I never saw her since then, but at the end of the day .

I realized that they are also girls who need care and true love and above and foremost RESPECT.
But they don't have it and they may or may not earn it. But they are the only one who can fight for it and person like us will always support them in their upbringing.

Smile

near to lake, near to you, near to heaven

You are hiding something in your eyes
I can see something behind your smile
there is a pain in your life
you don't wanna share your bad time

I want to tell you one thing
I m with you wherever u standing
In the room full of darkness
and in the joy of happiness

How I can see you cry
How I can make you mine
you the one I always try
to make u smile, to make u smile

you got an angel eyes
the way you blush
it took away my heart,
yes you are right
it makes me happy,
to see you smile

I like the way u talk
I like the way u mumble
it makes my heart to do royal rumble
All I want you to know
I ll be there for you
like a star in sky
we will fly
one day it will be our time
when there will be no one
and we hold each other tight
sharing all emotions
we will be in the sky
flying high
like a child on a ride
on green ground and trees will come alive
near to lake and hills high
we will go together
on every part of life
i wanna be with you
for your every sorrow and joy in each mile
and we will meet one day
when there will be no one
to keep us apart from each other
and then together
for us and forever
we live happily and keep on this smile.

Jinda Dili

Jinda Dili 

kuch kashmakash si hai jindagi mei
kuch to alag yeh mausam hai
kuch kami hai ab is mehfil mei
kyun sab jagah bikhra sa man hai

har seher mei bandh ti jo umeed hai
har shab mei toot jaati hai
kisso ki kahaniya yaad karke
labo se hasi chhoot jati hai

lamho mei gujar gaye jo pal
yun hi beet jaate hai
kuch makaam peeche choot jaate hai
kuch baatein yaad aa jaati hai

ashk bhi sookh jaatei hai
mohabbat bhi mit jaati hai
kuch vaadei reh jaatei hai
kuch yaadein reh jaati hai

kisi ke thahake
kisi ki badmashia reh jaati hai
seene mei bandh jaati hai kahaniya kayi
kaid usme saari jindagi ho jaati hai

ji karta hai chala jayun sab chodkar
mei us paar kahi door
par kuch majbooriyan aa jaati hai
kuch jimmedariyan aa jati hai

doobti kashti fr sambhal jaati hai
jab ankhon mei apno ki tasveer aa jati hai
baawre dil ko mana leta hai man
jab kabhi mushkile hadh se jyada bad jaati hai

chalna seekha hai
ab daud bhi lagayenge
hum mohabbat ke meethe bol gayenge
sambhaal lenge ab is dil ko bhi
ab hum khuhshia hi lutyange
geet madhur gun gunayenge
koi falsafa nya banayenge
jinda dili ke kisse humare,
log dunia mei gayenge
"musafir" ki tarah
hum to bas chalte jayenge
har mukaam se nayi manjil banayenge
hum to bas chalte jayenge

Don't know where to go, just walk.

Helplessness

Helplessness

Ok,

So Today I saw tears without water, courage without power, power without dignity, cruelty without guilt, men with hand shackled in poorness and a ruthless king.
Yes, I read those stories in magazines and books, but i found it here, in Bangalore (Indiranagar).

Its the end of evening when I reached mobile recharge shop with my girl friend asking for a 150 bucks recharge when a south Indian came asking, "Bhen***d(sister F***ker) Shyam (security guard ,standing just besides us.) why the signals are not coming", holding a samsung tab 2, don't know its a network problem, the King in his traditional south Indian dress (orange lungi+white shirt+blue chappal), again asking the same question with far more cruel voice," Bhen***d (sister F***ker) , bol(speak)", from one of his servants and then slapped him with full speed like my Hindi teacher used to hit me, in front of everyone and a girl. My mouth is open wide and then he said "I m waiting there get it corrected as soon as possible else you know".

My girlfriend got scared even I , he was 6ft tall weighing almost 90 kg and so obviously I couldn't speak. Everywhere was a deep silence and I saw that security guard, numb, a fine actor, crying from inside not letting even a single tear out, I know what he was thinking, if it was me at his place I might have killed him may be not.

I walked two steps with courage without power, "King" was watching me, I asked him "kaha se ho (Where are you from)", he replied Muzzafarnagar.
I told him putting my hand on his shoulder, "Don't work here, if you want to live".
After which my girlfriend took me with her, I dropp her at her PG, went home thinking about the guys handcuffed with poverty and money, leaving their self respect, just to live and I don't know how he will fix his TAB.

*Its a true story

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half happy

ek raah thi par manjil nahi thi...

parents and care

ek raasta tha par thikaana nahi tha..

gharo mei  jalte diye dekhe

to yaad aayi maa ki

roshan hota tha unka ghar

mere aane se shaam ko

ek din aaya aisa

safar par chal dia mei

"musafir" nikal gaya sadak pe

leke kashti lehro par

ufanti lehro se takrakar

pahucha jab manjil ki aur

to kinara door ho gya

mei ghar se manjil se

aur halaat se majboor ho gya

dekha idhar udhar

to puri dunia thi kashmakash mei

bhai, behen, pyar aur dost ke hatho mei

bandhi thi dore nayi si unke beech mei

mei bhi unhi se jud gya...

adha khush ho gya

ma, pitaji

mei bahut bada ban gya

par adha khush reh gya....

apke bina...!!!

apka sath tha

par paas na tha

apka ehsas tha

par sath na tha

baaton ka kya fayda tha

jab aap ka sahara na tha

rupey bahut they jeb mei

par khali jeb ka bahana na tha

ma, pitaji

bas yaadon ka asra tha

mera apke paas hi thikana tha

bas chaldiya mei pata nahi kyun

khushiyo ka sansar to aapse hi tha

ashko ka kya fayda

ab mei bada ban gya

par adha khush reh gya.....

apke bina...!!!

God, flexibility and you

Me and God...
the decision between Good me and Evil me
this is GOOD ME

I'm a Hindu, but don't know much about my mythology but still remember many events that my age mates don't remember. I remember most of the Ramayana (thanks to Ramanand Sagar),and I also remember most of the Mahabharata (Thanks to B.R. Chopra). I know, this piece I'm writing will be crap for some one, but have you imagine a life without GOD, Just Imagine for 2 min. and think what we will miss.

• No one will say why me God!!
• There will be no one whom you can always blame
• There will be no one whom you can ask anything anytime
• There will be no source of spiritual awareness
• There will be no thanking of GOD if you achieve something great
• There will be no temples, no church, no Mosque, no Gurudwara.

Then what, what we will say, why me Gandhiji or why me Hitler... just joking but as far as I feel, without GOD life is nothing, a kind of power will be lost forever that everyone feels inside them at some point of time in life.

I'm not saying that GOD is supreme and you should bow in front of HIM, even the God doesn't want it.
He is our friend, one who listen to our problems patiently any time, who is with us like air, who smiles with us cry with us, he is inside our Heart, living peacefully, who visits us at many points of time.

Now how come he can visit us, He is not here, He is in heaven, He has no face, he sends messengers, how come you are hurting my religious sentiments, 

This blog should be banned and he(I) must be jailed....???????????

The common mentality of every religion, the common man problem, they are so into in their sentiments to show their religious superiority that they forgot GOD never wants hatred, all he know is LOVE, Peace and Happiness.

Helping others will always make GOD happy any way any how, help others.

NOW the question is how come he visits us.......

• As your best friend who listen to your problem and mostly fixed it
• As you parents/caretakers who tries to fix your problems and need
• A friend who is happy with your happiness and sad with your sadness
• Same with the lover who loves you
• Same with those who blesses you with good health and wealth
• The one who you like to talk
• The one whom you'll share your problems

Still we need GOD, you know why, he made us like this, we are ambitious/over insecure who need God every time, we can never be satisfied, I know this is harsh, but this is the bitter truth and we became over protective about our religious sentiments, we have become insecure and we become rigid, even the God says that change can never be avoided but still we used to follow 10,000 years old ethics and loose our flexibility. It should be changed, this view should change and our lifestyle should change.

Nothing else to say, follow GOD be little flexible...

and Love for me is the thing that inspires me, motivates me and help me to what I m ...

which is GOD for me............and that is music.

dreams make me sleepless

 Dreams make me sleepless

Dreams

Dreams in sleep, dreams make me sleepless
Dream with no place has a place in my head
no way to get a way to have them
dreams in sleep dreams make me sleepless

I m fallen from the sky
wish I fly so high
just a step away I m kicked from my way
and fall on the ground with full bounce I try to revert back
but not enough to touch the sky




Promises I made, Promises I broke
there is crack in the glass of hope
going to break and the water is going to flow
collection of dreams again and building again the hope
so tough but its
Promises I made, Promises I broke
consequences I have to hold


give me some power to revert back
fallen from the sky
with broken promises
I want to touch the sky
 Dreams in sleep, dreams make me sleepless
I want to touch the sky again, I m restless