Ek ashq baha wahin, Aur un yaadon k sath woh bhi dhool mei mil gya

Umar ka padaav ek aisa tha
Na woh kuch bol sake na hamne kuch kahan

Chal rahe they woh apne humsafar ke sath
Khudgarj akele khade they hum is paar

Haseen thand ke mausam mei
Nazar mili to ruk sa gya yeh jahan

Pal bhar ke liye hi sahi
Par ek zindagi gujar gyi 

Bachpan ki kahani 
Aaj saalo baad yaad aagyi

Woh baarish ke mausam
Woh mitti ki khushboo
Kitabo ka bahana
Woh bachpan ka khelna

Har din ka intezaar hi besabari se tha
Shaam ko 5:30 baje unse milna jo hota tha

Par ek roj samay waise hi aaya jaise aata tha
Par jiska intezaar tha woh nhe aaya

Kisi ki kahi suni baaton par
Us nadaan ne bharosa kar lia tha

Samjh to mujhe dunia ki na tab thi na ab hai
Par yu dunia se darkar jeena mere samjh ke pare hai

Achanak se mei akela ho gya, bheed mei tanha ho gya
Usne mujhse baat karna choddo nazar milana bhi chodd dia

Bahut maafi maangi bin baat ke
Bahut peecha kia rickshaw ke 

Par idhar nazar hi na ghume
2-3 saal ka bachpan
Dhool ke sath udne laga
Meine bhi kismat samjh kar 
Khud ko hi khota maan lia

Socha agar itna dam hota to choddti kyun
Agar koi kuch manti to ek baar milti jarur, baat batati jarur

Samay ka pahiya aaj fir laut ke usi do-raahe par laaya
Par is baar mahaul alag, zindagi hi alag 

Aur aaj fir itne saalo baad jab usko dekha
Uski ankhon mei meine uske humsafar ko nahin dekha
Kuch gile they, kuch shikwe they
Par mohabbat nahin thi

Aisa laga

Un do palo mei jaise saari baat kar li thi
Usne maafi bhi maang li thi'
Meine kismat bhi samjh li thi
Aaj din kuch aur hota agar woh thodi himmat dikha leti
Maana bachpan ki mohabbat thi
Par kash woh samaaj ki baato mei naa aati

Par khushi is baat ki hai 
Ki ladki khush hai
Apne jahan mei mashgool hai
Videsh ke daure par hai
Uska humsafar bhi sundar hai

Ek ashq baha wahin
Aur un yaadon k sath woh bhi dhool mei mil gya
musafir ki manzil hi kahin aur thi
shayad yeh dil rasta bhatak gya tha

Matured

Being mature is something we will never know,
Enjoying party with the one you love thinking it will help my vested interests more

Enjoying romance with a stranger or with the one you love who doesn't care.
So you think its the other person responsibility to arouse your interest in them.
So you think you can take anyone for granted because he or she will not matter anymore.

Or So you think you can tell 
Tell what is right or wrong
You leave the persons you loves a lot
You do not enjoy company of friends
You do not love parties
You care for your money ever more

You become what society asked
You are not making any new friends

But when people lied to your face, made fun of your ways
They made you follow a certain path, and now they say you are changed

Why?

Tell me why speaking truth is the new crime
Coz you think money can buy, buy yourself a smile
Branded clothes and pics where you are in sky

To be true maturity is exactly the same thing.
It makes you a lovable person and a lying confident arrogant.
You will have an empty heart with no one inside.

You fulfill society wish and the child insides you die.

So does it makes you smile or does it makes you cry?
Does it?

Mei bhi jeelunga

माना की हम अधूरे है
तेरे बिना हम कैसे पूरे है
यह मंजिले भी अजीब है
हर दिन बदलती है

पर अब मे थक गया हूँ
अपनी उमीदो से मे हार गया हूँ
मेी गिर गया हूँ
अब संभालना नही आ रा है मेरे को

खुदा से बस एक ही दुआ है
मेरी जान ले ले
क्यूंकी दिखता मुझे अब सिर्फ़ धुआँ है..
धुआ ऐसा जो छ्ट नही रा है
मेरे मान पर छा चुका है
बस अब और रहा जाता नहीं
तेरे बिना जिया जाता नहीं
जा चुका है तू मुझसे मीलो दूर

अब कैसे आएगा तू पास मेरे
क्या कसमे
क्या वादे
सब झुटे हो रहे है
तुम अलग हो रहे हो
हम अलग हो रहे ह
चले जाओ हमसे दूर
मेरे आँसू कहीं तुमको रोक ना ले
मेरा दिल कहीं फिर तुमको रुकने पर मजबूर ना करदे
मेरे बिना ही तेरी खुशी है
मेरे बिना ही तेरी खुशी है
दर्द दिए है बहुत
मेरी भी उम्मीदे अलग थी
पर अब क्या फाय्दा
क्या फाय्दा तेरे आने का भी वापस
ना वो प्यार ह
ना मेरी इज़्ज़त है तेरी नज़रो मे
अब तो बस तन्हा इस राह पर
अकेले खड़े है
चली जा दूर
रहे तू खुश
दुआ है मेरी
तुझे मिले जिंदगी भरपूर
मेरे क्या है
मे तो जीलूनगा
तेरी खुशी क खातिर मेी भी जीलूनगा...

Time and Me

Is samay ki keemat samjh aa rhi hai

mere seene se jaan nikle ja rhi hai

kabhi nai tha mei sahi samay par sahi jagah

bas mere ashko ki ek ladi bahe ja rhi hai

Apno ko khota ja rha hun

sabki badd duayo ka hissa banta ja rha hun

kissa mera bhi ajeeb hai

sab kuch hokar bhi kuch nahi hai

man lag nahi rha hai

kaam ho nahi rha hai

ek bahaav mei bahe ja rha hun

mei tanha hota ja rha hun

koshish karta hun pahuchne ki manjil

par sochta hun behta rahun

mei kismat ki nadio mei doobta rahun

naya kuch kar pata nahi

ghar se itna door hun

aukaat jaane ki wapas bana pata nahin

mei thak gya hun

mei haar sa gya hun

jeene ke liye nikla tha door mei

mei to marta ja rha hun

sabka paraya hota ja rha hun

dost khoye ab khoon k rishtey bhi chod rhe hai

pyar bhi ajeeb hai mera

sab kuch hokar bhi kuch nahi hai mera

mehnat kiye ja rha hun

akela chale ja rha hun

kuch apno ke kaam nahi aa rha hun

apna kharcha bhi mushkil se utha pa rha hun

udhari ka jeeven ho gya hai

ghar ka haal behaal hai

dard hai

zakhm hai

marham ka kuch pata nahi hai

dhundta hun mei maa ka woh anchal

jisme mil jaaye saari khushia mujhe

dhundta hun mei pitaji ki woh rai

jisme mil jaaye saare upaaye

ab to andhero se ghir sa gya hun

mujhko nikalne yahan se koi to aaye

samay ki aukaat pata chal gyi

mera samay bhi koi theek kar jaaye

majboorio ki bedia ko todne ki takat do mujhe

aage badne ka hosla do mujhe

Kuch kar dikhane ka jajba aa jaye
khushiya meri laut aaye

Maaf kardena mujhko
lagi ho chot agar kahin kisi ko
mei to jeeta ja rha hun
mei to ladta ja rha hun
duao mei yaad rakhna mujhko bas
ladai khud se mei karne ja rha hun....

When I meet her and her helplessness.

 When I meet her and her helplessness.

I don't know, may be she is very old, may be near to 30 but within fraction of seconds I saw the loneliness in her eyes, the vague activities of her and the unexpected concern about an unknown, cannot make me forget her. May be I m too foolish to think to much of merely 10 seconds meet but it is changing my ideas, my views and my ideology of  taking and thinking about things that are neither social nor culturally good but it exist in our system from the days of Mahabharata, yes may be what you are thinking is right, I m talking about those dark and grey areas of society  which is known by everyone but nobody talks about it, nobody cares for them, we think of them as use and throw disposable pens. But I myself who respects girls a lot may or may not respect them before that incident, I m talking about those girls who makes man (who are not) happy in exchange of money.

It was March starting and I was marching towards my home on my scooter from palace road to near Leela palace, Kodihalli when my mobile rang near to Chinnaswamy stadium back and then again near to Shivaji nagar and again at manipal center so finally I stopped my scooter by crossing the manipal center turning left, just before the metro stop and pick it up, and it was my friend asking about how to deactivate fb profile, stupid but there during my call some one say, "want to go", I didn't looked at her, and just said no, and when she walked past me, I saw her and I came to know what she meant by that, I don't know what to do so I cut my phone and start laughing, I was laughing that why she asked me , I m just 22 and I don't want these shits, may be she can't see my face, that I m a young guy for these things but in the end I was laughing and then she looked backed at me smiling saying just go, leave, I said OK I m leaving and I was smiling, she said "go, some one will come then." And then I realized who is someone aka police or pimp, so I left from there. I saw something there, I saw something in her eyes , she was wearing saree, good ethical wears, and by face cut she is looking good, good English accent may be she is working in some call center may be not, but looks educated to me. But I saw something in her eyes, something that every girl has, dreams, waiting for a prince, care, maturity, affection and a lot of loneliness. I go a little forward looked back she was talking to some girl, and I zoom away on my scooter, I never saw her since then, but at the end of the day .

I realized that they are also girls who need care and true love and above and foremost RESPECT.
But they don't have it and they may or may not earn it. But they are the only one who can fight for it and person like us will always support them in their upbringing.

dreams make me sleepless

 Dreams make me sleepless

Dreams

Dreams in sleep, dreams make me sleepless
Dream with no place has a place in my head
no way to get a way to have them
dreams in sleep dreams make me sleepless

I m fallen from the sky
wish I fly so high
just a step away I m kicked from my way
and fall on the ground with full bounce I try to revert back
but not enough to touch the sky




Promises I made, Promises I broke
there is crack in the glass of hope
going to break and the water is going to flow
collection of dreams again and building again the hope
so tough but its
Promises I made, Promises I broke
consequences I have to hold


give me some power to revert back
fallen from the sky
with broken promises
I want to touch the sky
 Dreams in sleep, dreams make me sleepless
I want to touch the sky again, I m restless

ashk

ashk


iski uski har kisi ki najar ka asar hai
meri jindagi par har kisi ka asar hai
baatein hai kai saari
umeedo ka farak hai
kisi ki baat dil choo jaati hai - 2
kisi ka gaali dena bhi beasar hai

patthar ke dil hai
ashko ki na jane kya talab hai
mehfil ki gujarish ajeeb hai
duaayon mei bhi woh kaha asar hai
beekhra samaan hai
dil ke taraana bhi ajab hai
kashmkash mei khoye alfaaz hai
labo ko muskurana gajab hai

falak par chand hai poora aaj
uska akelapan bhi hai uske sath
patthar hai kayi bade chote
yahan rona galat hai
kehte hai hasna sabko manjoor hai
yahan dard nahi hai
yahan sab mast hai
yahan kisi ko shikan nahi
yahan sab khush hai

par rota asman bhi hai
par woh mohabbat hai jameen ke hisse ki
koi barish kehta hai koi paani
behte hai jharne bhi chattano se
dhoka kha jaate hai log use uski khoobsurti samjh ke
hasne waale ki har hasi ke peeche hai lakho gam
koi unhe samjhkar dekhe khul jayegi sare bhram

kaun kehta hai hame dard nahi hota
choto ka koi asar nahi hota
bas woh baat alag hai ki dikhate nahi
dard juban se byan kar paate nahi
atak jaata hai saara falak kaid hokar mere seene mei
ashk ke sath beh jaate hai dard kisi jameen ke kone mein
reh jaati bas thandi aahein
"musafir" ki kaha hai manjil kaha hai nigahe
dhunde jise, raastein bhi  hai unchahe
paigam hai unsuna
koi samjhe to baat hai
mera dard
koi samjhe to baat hai
behti nadiyo ke sath
beh jayengi umeede bhi
meri umeede koi samjhe to baat hai........

I was born idiot

I was born idiot...
improved with every situation...
learning with every experience...
still i m not the perfect
22 yrs in the making
they all thinks i m raving
but i m learning
gaining
maturing
and smiling

A man is born
A man die
he wishes for it
even when he don't try
I don't need favors
"I seriously don't lie
I walk alone
even if everyone take a side line"

I have my goals
I have my family
who stood by me every time
bucking me up once in a while
it gives me pleasure
even I know its not enough

people change in a fraction of time
what remains with me is my instinct my decision my life

friendship not always flourish
at times your better half is also not understanding
but its the time when you stand up and take a stand
because you know in the future
this action will surely help
to make your families tomorrow bright
you have to take a decision and decide what is right
this will make everyone to hate you
but striding your ways to success
and everyone will love you in the end

"I seriously don't lie
I walk alone
even if everyone take a side line"




I was born idiot...
improved with every situation...
learning with every experience...
still i m not the perfect
22 yrs in the making...

the day you are missing me

the day you are missing me

I got this feeling every time
someday, I'll not be there to make you smile
the day when you will need me
but i m so far away that you can't see me
than what will you do
to make yourself smile........?

A smile on your lips and a tear in your eyes.....

I was not a kind of guy
that let his feeling show
I thought that being alone
is the worst way to go
but its all enough
let me be alone
let me be by myself
all by me.........
in the most unknowable region
that no one could go

Now
today is "the day you are missing me"....

you are the one who thinks I m the fool
you all thinks I m the one that is for granted one
but its not all over
may be I smile a lot but it doesn't mean
I don't have a heart who care...
that day come
and they realizes, how irresponsible I was
one mistake and you forget it all...
and in the end it all went wrong
you leave me all alone........

time passes bye,  time goes on
you catch up an old album, an old video
saw me and laugh a lot
ask your old pal
where I was gone
and that is "the day you are missing me" a lot....

See
I had a problem that no one knows
In my last days I m all alone
I have no friends no one to talk
lying on my bed
still smiling with the memories
I don't want to share
one day I ll be gone
you will get a postcard regarding my end
but you will be unaware of the fact
where I went
where I rest with my batch mates memories
that I ll cherish even after my death...
and you won't get a hint
and even a stone can't tell
where I m lying...

Forever alone

"Forever alone"

It was a cold morning
three hours later a sunny noon...
I waited for her till the evening
I got her message yesterday morning

she said she will wait for me
but it all seems to be lie
I thought she will be there
waiting for me at the shore
i cant see anyone
I waited till dawn

The day ended with a tear
I can see in awe the great nature
the palpable view of the beauty
but it was not a good offer
for me its like another day
like a daily affair

her beauty is divine
she is like an angel
fallen from sky
her eyes are like pearl
her caring nature impressed me a lot
 like a father motivating in the church.

The day passed ON
and she doesn't realize how much i loved her
she thought I m just her good friend
may be I was not strong enough
but I know she knew what I feel about her

The day came when she met him
He was a nice guy
and I left her
sad and hopeless
I was all by myself
she left me like a wind in the air
I m left with the memories unshared

she is living her life
and I got my share of happiness
now she is gone
and i m still alone

I got a message on my phone yesterday afternoon
wait for me on that sea shore
where we met and play
The memories came up to my mind
I was smiling with a tear in my eyes
but she didn't came that day
and I was again left all alone..........................

still waiting all alone...

sadness & happiness

"sadness & happiness"


There were times when time left us alone, there were person somewhere related to us, we assume them as fake, we feel ourselves cheated and deceived (wonderful word of English, so many feelings in only one word), there were times when we cry, the impressions of time put such a great mark on our mind and heart that we feel everything dark and dim putting us to the edge of wall where one side has a great fall and other is the compromising world. The negatives are so high that we feel why we are alive, the thoughts of sorrows, despair and blurred thoughts of happiness making us believe in the facts quoted by our parents.


Now, this is the point where the bulb turns ON, though intelligent people have common sense and may have understood that what I m talking about, its my pleasure to tell you that nothing is much more important then the one who nourishes you, polishes you, helps you to bring out a woman or man out of a kid making your every wish as the command of God and who smile when you smile, cry when you cry and die when you die (not really but in feelings, spiritually they get weak and hard to find to live on their own but times teaches all, the biggest healer).


From a total drawn-out sudden attack of low, to a smiling face with tears in eyes. This note is not about parents  only but for everyone who loves you. Remember that Yashodha mayya is remembered as the mother of Shri Krishna but not Devaki ma...its a truth we cannot deny, and a divine love we cannot explain of Radha annd Krishna, Friendship of Krishna and Sudama I have taken the examples of our own mythology, the most common one to explain what I want to say in above para.


Thus the end result is:
The truth, the love, the smile is always with us somewhere inside our heart lying silently with deeply rooted memories of happiness, just we have to find it and share it.
& The real end is:
A most commonly said line "Love always grew if u share it and Sadness always decrease if you share it" and Sharing is the basic of happiness but share carefully. Terms and Conditions apply.


a short note may be inspiring, may be not but it may help you if you read it calm.

A wish

"A wish"

I don't need a smile of you that is not mine...
I don't need your concern that is not by heart...
I can't see anything in your eyes...A blank space of mine..

Its all about time I wanted from you, but you was running out of time...
you were not there when I needed you and I m the one who apologize...

I feel so alone....

with all the leftovers of you..
I cried like a rainfall of the pain..
missing you like hell
why I m the one who regrets...

Its all about the space you needed I gave it to you..
You want to be on your own, wants freedom I gave it to you...
I fight for you, expected something from you
but it all ended....

closing my eyes a tear of you rolled down my cheeks...
cold air surround me with a cool breeze...
you are a part of my life i ll never forget
its all the matter of time that you are not here...
but why this sacrifice for me , she should tell me ...

[pause]
now I m the one who is repenting.
and in the heaven she is resting....
now I know the love
I remember all the promise, I remember everything
I m aiming towards our dreams
I need you why you left me
I m missing you
I am all alone

I m all alone blaming myself...
I was not there when she needed me the most...
I m waiting for you, a wish that can never come true crying like hell...
but
I m still waiting n waiting n waiting for you to come and give me a hug...
A wish that can never turn true...