Ek ashq baha wahin, Aur un yaadon k sath woh bhi dhool mei mil gya

Umar ka padaav ek aisa tha
Na woh kuch bol sake na hamne kuch kahan

Chal rahe they woh apne humsafar ke sath
Khudgarj akele khade they hum is paar

Haseen thand ke mausam mei
Nazar mili to ruk sa gya yeh jahan

Pal bhar ke liye hi sahi
Par ek zindagi gujar gyi 

Bachpan ki kahani 
Aaj saalo baad yaad aagyi

Woh baarish ke mausam
Woh mitti ki khushboo
Kitabo ka bahana
Woh bachpan ka khelna

Har din ka intezaar hi besabari se tha
Shaam ko 5:30 baje unse milna jo hota tha

Par ek roj samay waise hi aaya jaise aata tha
Par jiska intezaar tha woh nhe aaya

Kisi ki kahi suni baaton par
Us nadaan ne bharosa kar lia tha

Samjh to mujhe dunia ki na tab thi na ab hai
Par yu dunia se darkar jeena mere samjh ke pare hai

Achanak se mei akela ho gya, bheed mei tanha ho gya
Usne mujhse baat karna choddo nazar milana bhi chodd dia

Bahut maafi maangi bin baat ke
Bahut peecha kia rickshaw ke 

Par idhar nazar hi na ghume
2-3 saal ka bachpan
Dhool ke sath udne laga
Meine bhi kismat samjh kar 
Khud ko hi khota maan lia

Socha agar itna dam hota to choddti kyun
Agar koi kuch manti to ek baar milti jarur, baat batati jarur

Samay ka pahiya aaj fir laut ke usi do-raahe par laaya
Par is baar mahaul alag, zindagi hi alag 

Aur aaj fir itne saalo baad jab usko dekha
Uski ankhon mei meine uske humsafar ko nahin dekha
Kuch gile they, kuch shikwe they
Par mohabbat nahin thi

Aisa laga

Un do palo mei jaise saari baat kar li thi
Usne maafi bhi maang li thi'
Meine kismat bhi samjh li thi
Aaj din kuch aur hota agar woh thodi himmat dikha leti
Maana bachpan ki mohabbat thi
Par kash woh samaaj ki baato mei naa aati

Par khushi is baat ki hai 
Ki ladki khush hai
Apne jahan mei mashgool hai
Videsh ke daure par hai
Uska humsafar bhi sundar hai

Ek ashq baha wahin
Aur un yaadon k sath woh bhi dhool mei mil gya
musafir ki manzil hi kahin aur thi
shayad yeh dil rasta bhatak gya tha

Stare

It is too less for me to understand and you are too bold
The stare that can kill me without being told.

Nothing to assess, your emotions are held within
And I am far less educated to understand it

and yet I am standing in front of you
trying to help us, waiting for a clue

Your eyes are so serene, like a fresh morning in the mountains
Yet I can see pearls in them, inside your ocean of emotions 

This is the time when I realize
I was wrong and you were right

I know whatever the situations might be
but I cannot see tears in my would be

I tried to be calm
Darling, its true
But I cannot control my rage for you
And that's when I started to build a cage for you

I want you to be free
Like a care free spirit
Like an angel
With dreams in your eyes so high
You can touch up the sky

I knew somewhere in my heart
That I was doing wrong
But I am the one who hold this strong
I will be your other half
Your soulmate
Your call in alone
Your ears for talk
Your first and last resort

O baby please don't go,
Not physically but emotionally also.
Keep us connected
I will bring you back
Your soul
And then we will be together like we used to be
And shine like a brightest star in this sky

"And then I said sorry, kneeled down and regretted in full emotion
Then these words came out of my mouth in a natural notion

Your are my angel and my life
My first and last friend and my would be wife
I know I hurt you
That's my mistake
O! my darling
Please spare me from your stare

I don't want to be your dream killer
I want to be your dream maker
and I will make you reach there
High in the sky and we live there

All I can do is promise to you, 
All our dreams will come true, 
And brighter then diamond we will shine,
I will never let a pearl fall on the ground from your eyes"

Humrahi

फना होने को दिल चाहा जब तब उसनेअपने दामन में छिपा लिया ।
मुसाफिर के सबसे लंबे सफ़र में हमे हमसफ़र बना लिया।
न वो कुछ बोले न हमने कुछ कहा,
बेफिक्र एक लम्हा तारा बनकर आस्मां का बना लिया।

Lost

kabhi kahin shikwe hai
kahin ansu hai
kahin dil ka samundar adhoora hai
kahin shikayato mei ghira sansar hai

man ki baat hai
man mei hi rehti hai
naqaab kisi cheez ka hota hai
jubaan dikhawe ki hoti hai

har baat ka koi jawab nhe hota
har sawal sahi bhi nhe hota hai
kisso mei uljhi hui kahani hai
kho gyi sabki nishani hai

man mei jajbaat ajeeb hote hai
alfaazo mei alag hote hai
aayine mei dekho to
tasveer alag hoti hai

roz naya suraj hota hai
roz naya chehra bunte hai
roz naye bahane chunte hai

sikhte to hum yeh sab bachpan se hi hai
sikhaane waale bhi beymaan nahi hote hai
imaandaar kaun hai, shareef kaun
isi mei kho jaate hai
hum khud se hi door jaate hai

kisi ke na hote hue bhi hum kisi k ho jaate hai
roj ro jaate hai
karwat badalte hai aur so jaate hai

kya khoya hai
kya paaya hai
humne khud se narajgi
khud ko hi bheed mei gawaya hai

Time and Me

Is samay ki keemat samjh aa rhi hai

mere seene se jaan nikle ja rhi hai

kabhi nai tha mei sahi samay par sahi jagah

bas mere ashko ki ek ladi bahe ja rhi hai

Apno ko khota ja rha hun

sabki badd duayo ka hissa banta ja rha hun

kissa mera bhi ajeeb hai

sab kuch hokar bhi kuch nahi hai

man lag nahi rha hai

kaam ho nahi rha hai

ek bahaav mei bahe ja rha hun

mei tanha hota ja rha hun

koshish karta hun pahuchne ki manjil

par sochta hun behta rahun

mei kismat ki nadio mei doobta rahun

naya kuch kar pata nahi

ghar se itna door hun

aukaat jaane ki wapas bana pata nahin

mei thak gya hun

mei haar sa gya hun

jeene ke liye nikla tha door mei

mei to marta ja rha hun

sabka paraya hota ja rha hun

dost khoye ab khoon k rishtey bhi chod rhe hai

pyar bhi ajeeb hai mera

sab kuch hokar bhi kuch nahi hai mera

mehnat kiye ja rha hun

akela chale ja rha hun

kuch apno ke kaam nahi aa rha hun

apna kharcha bhi mushkil se utha pa rha hun

udhari ka jeeven ho gya hai

ghar ka haal behaal hai

dard hai

zakhm hai

marham ka kuch pata nahi hai

dhundta hun mei maa ka woh anchal

jisme mil jaaye saari khushia mujhe

dhundta hun mei pitaji ki woh rai

jisme mil jaaye saare upaaye

ab to andhero se ghir sa gya hun

mujhko nikalne yahan se koi to aaye

samay ki aukaat pata chal gyi

mera samay bhi koi theek kar jaaye

majboorio ki bedia ko todne ki takat do mujhe

aage badne ka hosla do mujhe

Kuch kar dikhane ka jajba aa jaye
khushiya meri laut aaye

Maaf kardena mujhko
lagi ho chot agar kahin kisi ko
mei to jeeta ja rha hun
mei to ladta ja rha hun
duao mei yaad rakhna mujhko bas
ladai khud se mei karne ja rha hun....

The day I stand tall

It was summertime in the sunshine…

I got a call when I was on the bike

Speeding my ways to the roadside…

I stopped myself and took a call

In the meantime,

She was there asking for a ride

A girl with a white cheek

I fell for her in no time

Reaching her just in time

We met up and we exchanged our numbers

Started hoping to make her mine…

I started riding back to home,

Asking god to give me some more…

May be I am not the one she asked for

But why I can’t enjoy love anymore.

This question made my heart torn

I reached and looked in the mirror

I saw a girl behind me and cried a lot…

She is still beautiful like an angel in this world

She is still the one I loved the most

I lost my control, feeling damn low

May be she doesn’t want me to cry also

But life needs to move-on

Carry-on

I said to myself,

Stood up and fall like anything

Time stopped

Memories flashed

A life gone

And two are dead

There were letters I had,

With her love in the end,

Reading it,

With tears dropping on every single line.

I closed my room

I sat alone

I opened my heart

And started listening songs.

Left the drinks long ago

Left the smoke ages ago

It’s time to build a dream

Some-one it is

I called the girl, to say:

‘We can’t continue anymore’

Called my partner,

I have an idea to work on…

And when her dream will get fulfilled

That will be the day

I will stand tall

And then I can say it to myself

I have done it to make her tall.

From the heaven you will see

In the heaven you will be in pride.

Through the heaven you will smile.

It’s the day I stand tall

It’s the day I stand tall

Rise Up

More than a year I am away
Its more than a year I am afraid
Being naive, I shared everything
Everything I should never say
I am learning by my mistakes

So it's more than a year
when I last saw the world make way
thwarted with the kins expectation
my instincts has something else to say

I saw light here
I saw more reflections
I saw people with black heart
I saw people with golden heart here

I forget to sleep
I saw my family in my dreams
Mom cooking food for me
Dad buying books for me

I saw my curved cricket bat, I used to play with it
I saw myself in mirror when I got tanned playing with it

with every movie I cry now
all seems real to me now
the project my sister used to do
are all flying in ashes now

Life has taken a curve
and I am miles away to learn
being bad, its me who has to adjourn
love me or not
I have to make decision for the best of us

and yes, I have seen the worst
I have seen deaths
I have seen people going away in rush
and that hurts

All this year I was alone
nobody was here
everyone was there
No talks matter when you are fallen.

But one thing that was never faraway is my love
my faith, my trust
that makes me a fallen hero waiting to rise up.
yeaah, It's tough
but you always take a leap of faith
to gain the trust
and I took that leap
and I have the trust
about my love

whatever people say I don't mind
I have that trust
one light 
one motivation
and one thrust
and my fellas that's love

So In more than a year
I learnt to grow here
I learnt to fight back 
I learnt to stay alive
I learnt to respect
I am still learning
and worst thing I learned here is how to unlearn more quickly.

In more than a year when I was away
I learned a lot in life journey
which has its own way
it made me to wake up
it makes a fallen hero - RISE UP.

Jee le..

Khawbo ko udan de

dil ko tu tham le
mushkil hai hazaar kayi
unse tu na haar rey

O Maula tera hi kasoor hai
jo na mujhko sukoon hai
kashmakash ki jindagi mei
khwahisho ka junoon hai

Ajeeb se is jahan mei
sab Khana-Badosh hain
kya hai kya nahi hai
kisi ko na hosh hai

tu jo aajaye yahan pe
dekhle tu apni najar se
kaisi si ho gayi hai yeh jindagi
ban gayi hai yeh bandagi

jeene ki aas mei
kho gaye hum is jahan mei
paaya na khoya kuch
yaadon mei soya sab

O Maula tera hi kasoor hai
jo na mujhko sukoon hai
kashmakash ki jindagi mei
khwahisho ka junoon hai.....

Fate n Mystery

Mystery

I m no SuperMan
Searching for my self existense
Believing in love and faith
and all I got is expected tale

I know its me who is here
to solve the mystry of stonehenge
the mistakes of others
why I have to face

coming to beginning
after facing the end
its like you fall down
and break your neck

Lost my smile in the smokey world
life has got so many twist n turns
throbbing my head, my heart
making my BP to float a tire

even then I m fighting
fighting to exist
expecatation on my shoulder
n with only one opportunity

my hands are cold
my palms are sweaty
but will it change my world
lets see my fate and its mystery
waiting for it to end.

When I meet her and her helplessness.

 When I meet her and her helplessness.

I don't know, may be she is very old, may be near to 30 but within fraction of seconds I saw the loneliness in her eyes, the vague activities of her and the unexpected concern about an unknown, cannot make me forget her. May be I m too foolish to think to much of merely 10 seconds meet but it is changing my ideas, my views and my ideology of  taking and thinking about things that are neither social nor culturally good but it exist in our system from the days of Mahabharata, yes may be what you are thinking is right, I m talking about those dark and grey areas of society  which is known by everyone but nobody talks about it, nobody cares for them, we think of them as use and throw disposable pens. But I myself who respects girls a lot may or may not respect them before that incident, I m talking about those girls who makes man (who are not) happy in exchange of money.

It was March starting and I was marching towards my home on my scooter from palace road to near Leela palace, Kodihalli when my mobile rang near to Chinnaswamy stadium back and then again near to Shivaji nagar and again at manipal center so finally I stopped my scooter by crossing the manipal center turning left, just before the metro stop and pick it up, and it was my friend asking about how to deactivate fb profile, stupid but there during my call some one say, "want to go", I didn't looked at her, and just said no, and when she walked past me, I saw her and I came to know what she meant by that, I don't know what to do so I cut my phone and start laughing, I was laughing that why she asked me , I m just 22 and I don't want these shits, may be she can't see my face, that I m a young guy for these things but in the end I was laughing and then she looked backed at me smiling saying just go, leave, I said OK I m leaving and I was smiling, she said "go, some one will come then." And then I realized who is someone aka police or pimp, so I left from there. I saw something there, I saw something in her eyes , she was wearing saree, good ethical wears, and by face cut she is looking good, good English accent may be she is working in some call center may be not, but looks educated to me. But I saw something in her eyes, something that every girl has, dreams, waiting for a prince, care, maturity, affection and a lot of loneliness. I go a little forward looked back she was talking to some girl, and I zoom away on my scooter, I never saw her since then, but at the end of the day .

I realized that they are also girls who need care and true love and above and foremost RESPECT.
But they don't have it and they may or may not earn it. But they are the only one who can fight for it and person like us will always support them in their upbringing.

Smile

near to lake, near to you, near to heaven

You are hiding something in your eyes
I can see something behind your smile
there is a pain in your life
you don't wanna share your bad time

I want to tell you one thing
I m with you wherever u standing
In the room full of darkness
and in the joy of happiness

How I can see you cry
How I can make you mine
you the one I always try
to make u smile, to make u smile

you got an angel eyes
the way you blush
it took away my heart,
yes you are right
it makes me happy,
to see you smile

I like the way u talk
I like the way u mumble
it makes my heart to do royal rumble
All I want you to know
I ll be there for you
like a star in sky
we will fly
one day it will be our time
when there will be no one
and we hold each other tight
sharing all emotions
we will be in the sky
flying high
like a child on a ride
on green ground and trees will come alive
near to lake and hills high
we will go together
on every part of life
i wanna be with you
for your every sorrow and joy in each mile
and we will meet one day
when there will be no one
to keep us apart from each other
and then together
for us and forever
we live happily and keep on this smile.

First Love

"First Love"

It was after high school

There was me,

holding her hand in a movie

She was scared a little 

and so is me ....

I got a call from my mom,

she caught me I was on date

with a girl she don't like

even listening her name...

My girl was Prodigy of sweetness

her talks made me sleepless

but anyhow I have to face this

she understand it

I don't get it

why I left her alone.........

Whom to blame whom to not

for the fights of elder

this generation has to face it all

Broken Trust,

Broken Heart

Broken Hopes

Is all left with us.

She cried like hell

never let me know

how she felt

she believes in me

even after I left her in vain

She was an angel

She was naive

I did it for both of us

as we had to separate

I become bad,

used hate speech

We broke up like millions time

but she came back 

whenever I m not feeling well

But I made myself strong

hid my tears

pull my jacket on

I walked on a path straight

fighting with myself

changing my address

I left her

with the memories

of more then 2 yrs of togetherness

Our fight our love

our care

all stays with me

All I have is her letters

and my tears dropping on it

I read them when I feel blue....

I walk down the streets where she stays

I heard laughing

I heard family dinner

I smiled, lit a cigarette

and I go away

Its now 4 years....

came to know she finds her man

n I fall in with another girl

But still in my morning prayers

I say her name

and wish for her....

and I do believe

She do the same...

May God Bless Her....

half happy

ek raah thi par manjil nahi thi...

parents and care

ek raasta tha par thikaana nahi tha..

gharo mei  jalte diye dekhe

to yaad aayi maa ki

roshan hota tha unka ghar

mere aane se shaam ko

ek din aaya aisa

safar par chal dia mei

"musafir" nikal gaya sadak pe

leke kashti lehro par

ufanti lehro se takrakar

pahucha jab manjil ki aur

to kinara door ho gya

mei ghar se manjil se

aur halaat se majboor ho gya

dekha idhar udhar

to puri dunia thi kashmakash mei

bhai, behen, pyar aur dost ke hatho mei

bandhi thi dore nayi si unke beech mei

mei bhi unhi se jud gya...

adha khush ho gya

ma, pitaji

mei bahut bada ban gya

par adha khush reh gya....

apke bina...!!!

apka sath tha

par paas na tha

apka ehsas tha

par sath na tha

baaton ka kya fayda tha

jab aap ka sahara na tha

rupey bahut they jeb mei

par khali jeb ka bahana na tha

ma, pitaji

bas yaadon ka asra tha

mera apke paas hi thikana tha

bas chaldiya mei pata nahi kyun

khushiyo ka sansar to aapse hi tha

ashko ka kya fayda

ab mei bada ban gya

par adha khush reh gya.....

apke bina...!!!

God, flexibility and you

Me and God...
the decision between Good me and Evil me
this is GOOD ME

I'm a Hindu, but don't know much about my mythology but still remember many events that my age mates don't remember. I remember most of the Ramayana (thanks to Ramanand Sagar),and I also remember most of the Mahabharata (Thanks to B.R. Chopra). I know, this piece I'm writing will be crap for some one, but have you imagine a life without GOD, Just Imagine for 2 min. and think what we will miss.

• No one will say why me God!!
• There will be no one whom you can always blame
• There will be no one whom you can ask anything anytime
• There will be no source of spiritual awareness
• There will be no thanking of GOD if you achieve something great
• There will be no temples, no church, no Mosque, no Gurudwara.

Then what, what we will say, why me Gandhiji or why me Hitler... just joking but as far as I feel, without GOD life is nothing, a kind of power will be lost forever that everyone feels inside them at some point of time in life.

I'm not saying that GOD is supreme and you should bow in front of HIM, even the God doesn't want it.
He is our friend, one who listen to our problems patiently any time, who is with us like air, who smiles with us cry with us, he is inside our Heart, living peacefully, who visits us at many points of time.

Now how come he can visit us, He is not here, He is in heaven, He has no face, he sends messengers, how come you are hurting my religious sentiments, 

This blog should be banned and he(I) must be jailed....???????????

The common mentality of every religion, the common man problem, they are so into in their sentiments to show their religious superiority that they forgot GOD never wants hatred, all he know is LOVE, Peace and Happiness.

Helping others will always make GOD happy any way any how, help others.

NOW the question is how come he visits us.......

• As your best friend who listen to your problem and mostly fixed it
• As you parents/caretakers who tries to fix your problems and need
• A friend who is happy with your happiness and sad with your sadness
• Same with the lover who loves you
• Same with those who blesses you with good health and wealth
• The one who you like to talk
• The one whom you'll share your problems

Still we need GOD, you know why, he made us like this, we are ambitious/over insecure who need God every time, we can never be satisfied, I know this is harsh, but this is the bitter truth and we became over protective about our religious sentiments, we have become insecure and we become rigid, even the God says that change can never be avoided but still we used to follow 10,000 years old ethics and loose our flexibility. It should be changed, this view should change and our lifestyle should change.

Nothing else to say, follow GOD be little flexible...

and Love for me is the thing that inspires me, motivates me and help me to what I m ...

which is GOD for me............and that is music.